Changing the Prophecy

Ever since the last post, slowly, ive been losing my wanting to sleep. But its not because of a massive change anymore, something tells me nothing will happen anymore to such a caliber, ive grown beyond that and if anything im more simple. I just have something on my mind thats been bothering me. This time its the thing i thought would happen that eats me up because it didn't, what a bitch. I used to get off on those stressful times where such a huge change would happen that id change entirely, itll make me feel like i had a purpose, and unlimited potential. Instead of the spikes now im progressing in a more linear manner. Hey, im not complaining, i finally got what i asked for, consistently..somewhere to kick up my legs and just be myself. but where does this lead me in the future, would this linear path allow me to mature and grow fast enough to allow me to reach my expectations and the potential that i know i am mentally prepared for?

The prophecy stated that i could never land a girlfriend, that i couldnt get a girl even if i tried. Now i have a girlfriend and gotten multiple friends laid multiple times and ive gotten back at all the girls that fucked with me in the past. My prophecy told me i could never do better but now im using my knowledge in the best way i know fit. I use my people skills and focus to make legitimate sales. The prophecy said id live in a ditch alone, because of my differences in beliefs and philosophy. Ive met so many people that agree with me and i feel so much more  mature for my age than any because i can finally move away from people that dont see me as fitting. And the most impactful to me was that for a long period of time i actually thought my life would literally end after the age of 19..and well it did...in a dream (you can read about it in a blogpost if you look for it). I was scared, my skill set was not applicable to the world we live in today but like usual i adapt, and still working at it.

The only thing i havent succeeded is the thought that i wouldnt be able to graduate college and you know what? fuck everyone that doesnt believe in me. I know this is not true. I will finish and once i do everything will just fall in place so right..I've started preparing for it already..school is actually the last thing i need to finish. because you can never have too much of it, but am i ready for it right now? no. Will i be scared of being alone in the course of the next year because all my friends are graduating? Maybe. But you know what? Im going to succeed. And i believe it to be true and so fuck everyone else, friends are longlasting im glad they can leave and pursue theyre lives but i honestly dont mind taking my time. I might regret this in the future, but ive seen alot more people regret not being financially stable than not graduating on time. True story.

Confidence is key, making sure i am in control of everything i do is key. Motivational speeches are awesome! so are twinkies!

Im working on a lot right now. the load is light but the journey is long and i need to pace myself while exercising my strength to carry more. That is why im excited to move out and live alone in 2-3 months! am i ready for it? FUCK NO! do i give a shit? NOT AT ALL! i know theres going to be a lot more pros than cons if i adapt and live with it.

I miss blogging though, Ive had so many inspirational moments in the past that just slipped out of my hands after i touched a keyboard or held a pen. On a more casual level, hows my life been? I need to work out again, this last of physical activity isnt cutting out for me. Ive been biking a shit ton to balance things out but that isnt enough. I have too much pent up testosterone and i can tell. The level my confidence peeks its like screaming help me! i need to work out so i can be like old humble self again instead of being the small dog with a big bark. I enjoy the peeks but itll be much more consistant and controlled if i actually was fit and felt physically and mentally accomplished.

I definitely want to get into longboarding again, idk how long i intend to keep longboarding in my life, especially after my last wipeout but i miss it, i really do and i wish i could keep doing it. maybe when i have enough money..I can never have too much..

My work life is fun, but im feeling the strain of consistancy. Its hard for a man like me to do and say the same shit 100 times for every single day i work but i need to get use to it. This is a life of a grown up. hopefully i can move up the coperate ladder or, even better, actually go international and do what i dreamed of doing ever since i was in highschool which is go build some fucking robots and be smart enough to be genius innovator.

Its funny how all of this was possible because of a girlfriend..well goodnight! and have fun :]